Thursday, May 30, 2013
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
I am just not cut out for blogging EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
After a while it just felt like it was a chore. I felt like I wasn’t writing anything that was quality, I was just writing to say I did it.
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Just because one person says terrible things about you doesn't mean they are true.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Hmmm I like this topic! But....I haven't been writing that long so I don't have a ton to choose from :)
Happiness Is - A big long list of my happy things!
Explaining the Sleepy - The post expains the "sleepy" part of my blog name!
Cautiously Optimistic - The first post I wrote about C :)
Eight Letters - About the first time C told me he loved me
Monday, May 20, 2013
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Once, I fell asleep on the toilet. I remember my mom waking me up. Um? Embarrassing!
Once I fell asleep only half on my bed. You see, I had a pretty tall bed. To get onto it as a child, I had to do sort of a climb. It must have been exhausting that night after a trip back from the bathroom (I’m assuming) because I fell asleep with one leg bent up on the bed, one leg standing on the ground, and my body hunched up over the side of the bed. Comfy? Must have been!
Once I fell asleep standing up in the middle of my bed with my arm outstretched over my head. Apparently I was trying to be a rock star. Or possibly trying to pull the string to turn off my fan. Either way, it was just too much for me so I fell asleep right in the middle of whatever action I was doing!
My favorite story as a kid though is a sleepwalking story. I was 5, which is probably why I don’t remember it. Thankfully, when I was younger, my parents had an alarm on the house. One night around 2am it went off. My parents rushed out to see me cheerfully walking out the door (albeit completely asleep). They freak out and say “Justine, what are you doing?” My reply???
“Bye mom, I’m going out to play!”
Friday, May 17, 2013
I just thought I'd show you a few pictures from back in my modeling days. It's so cool to get your hair and makeup done and become someone else for a little while. I did a lot of bridal modeling, I guess I just had the look for it. Sweet, innocent, girl next door. It was awesome to be able to put all sorts of wedding dressed on! I had several fake husbands over the years. One I even had for multiple shoots! Modeling was something I just did for fun. I never planned to be the next Heidi Klum, I just loved the whole process of it :) Maybe if I show C some of these pictures he will get excited to see me in a wedding dress?
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
The first four are my ultimate "happy places." They have been for years. You will never find me in one of those places without a huge smile on my face. I could spend hours upon hours at all of them. I have gone to the first three with C, one left to visit!
Monday, May 13, 2013
I HATE YOU.
(Day 13: Issue a public apology.)
Yeah that's right. I b,ig bold, capital letters, just plain don't like you.
I can't even explain why, I just know that my hatred for you is strong. It could be that I don't like to sweat and you make that happen. It could be that I don't like going to you alone and majority of the time I have to. I could even be that seeing the bright blue pool from inside your windows just makes me angry.
That being said, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I hate you so much. I'm sorry that I don't ever want to come visit you. I'm sorry that I make every excuse in the book to not have to see you.
I will try harder. I want this to work, I really do. Maybe we could compromise? Somehow?
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Friday, May 10, 2013
P.P.S. I'm sure I have some stories that are even more embarrassing, but I honestly can't think of any. I mean, I have to right? This could not be the worst. But maybe at the time it was and so it has stuck with me all of my life. I swear I am not holding out on you guys with a better, more embarrassing story!
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
We found out about his cancer sometime in 2011, so my fears have subsided a bit. He is doing great after treatment and walking down the aisle is something that I actually see in my near future now that I have C in my life. I am praying that he continues to stay healthy and that soon this won’t be a worry in my life at all, because he will be healed!
Monday, May 6, 2013
Sunday, May 5, 2013
After my first partner backed out (after emailing me once, she must not have liked me much!) I was paired up with the lovely Melissa of Dreams and Colour. I am so glad that I was!
Day 4 : Favorite quote (from a person, from a book, etc) and why you love it
I decided to go a little different way with this and tell you my favorite Bible verse. It's quoting the inspired word of God, I think those are the best kinds of quotes!
My all time favorite Bible verse is Phillipians 3:13. Which says "No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead"
It's definitely not the standard right? Well God spoke to me one night and this verse coincides with it. I dated my high school boyfriend for 3 years and we had recently broken up. He was a pastors kid and I really loved the church, so I stayed there. Obviously being a young teen, that's wasn't my only reason. I was hoping it wasn't really the end for us. But this is beside the point. One night after church, I was sitting out behind the church alone on the swing set watching a lightning storm. There was a beautiful "show" going on in front of me and even lightning happening behind me. I kept trying to catch it all, but I quickly began noticing that every time I turned around to watch the lighting behind me, I would miss something even more spectacular that was happening in front of me. I know that God was teaching me something. All I could focus on at that point in my life was my past and what had happened. But God was showing me that while I was doing that, he was trying to show me even better things right in front of me. All I needed to do was let go and stop worrying about the past and focus ony future.
After that, I was led to this verse. I can't quite remember how, but it always reminds me of that day. It was the day that I decided that I was going to quit focusing on my past and what I couldn't change and start focusing on all the amazing things that God had planned for me in my future.
I just checked my Bible....amidst all the highlighting around the verse, I had written "lightening in front and behind 08/04." Guess this happened in 2004!
(I had written this yesterday, but totally forgot to post! Sorry!)
Friday, May 3, 2013
In no particular order, I made a list. If you knew nothing about me at all, after reading this list it's obvious that I am a shy, introverted person!
What makes me uncomfortable?
Conversations with people I barely know
Attention on me
When women show their underwear, bra straps, other undergarments and couldn't care less
Speaking in front of people
Driving in the mountains
Being in a room where I don't know anyone and I'm expected to mingle
Did I mention attention on me? I really, really don't like it. I think I'm the opposite of most women on that point. Just thinking about a bridal shower or a baby shower where ever just sits and stares at me as I open gifts makes me uncomfortable.
(I am on a road trip for work and posting from my phone....sorry for the quality!)